Where do I even begin?
It's the 34th day in a row now that I've woken up and said to myself, "I'm the luckiest person in the world". Maybe it's because I am, or maybe it's because I've finally discovered the difference between simply being awake and truly feeling alive. Either way it's safe to say that I am without a doubt the happiest I have ever been.
Just one year ago, I lived a life in which I struggled daily with who I was, where I was going, and what purpose I had on this earth. Sure I was good at taking care of kids, but so are a lot of people. Sure I was a pretty good daughter, girlfriend and friend, but I wanted to be even more than that. At the time, I had a confidence that had been completely shattered by years of allowing undeserving people the right to majorly influence my life. The constant battle of wanting somebody to love somehow overshadowed my voice of reason, and believe me, I was paying the price. And so... by putting my big girl pants on, being brave, and letting go of those who no longer served a positive purpose in my life, I somehow ended up here. An entire world away, and living in the greatest year of my life.
I've been told numerous times by family members, friends and professors that I have quite the way with words when I write. I, of course, never really thought anything of it back then. All of those A's on papers weren't even enough to convince me that my writing could be translated into something really useful one day. And somehow, a few years later and 10,000 miles from home, I think I've found my calling if you will-- my purpose.
I started blogging as a way for me to keep an online memorial of my journey as an au pair (glorified live-in nanny for any of you who are confused about why I keep throwing this french word around). Additionally, it made it really easy for family and friends to keep tabs on me every step of the way. It appears though, that overnight, my blog has become somewhat of a real success (a pretty big success in a new blogger's eyes anyway). I've received hundreds (literally hundreds) of emails, comments and friend requests and my blog has gained over 10,000 viewers in just a few hours! I am shaken with the support and love from all of you who have somehow joined me on this crazy journey I like to call life.
I've heard the word "inspiring" thrown around about me just short of 178 times today, but the truth is, that YOU inspire me. You have given me a sense of purpose that I have never had before and make me feel that my writing somehow translates into something others find valuable. Whether you are a fellow au pair, a person who feels lost, a person seeking comfort, a person looking for the light at the end of that dark, dark tunnel, a person in need of some direction, a person searching for their place in this crazy world, a family member, a traveler, a friend, or simply another person with a big time dream, I can't thank you enough for supporting me throughout this amazing adventure, and for so bravely sharing your stories with me. If there's any way that I can help you, please don't hesitate to ask. Whether I've known you for 25 years or 25 minutes, that's exactly what I'm here for, and I will get back to you as soon as I can :).
With that being said I'd like to compile a list of a few of the many things I am thankful for:
1. being alive. you'd think that one is a given, but sadly many of us don't appreciate the moment we wake up everyday enough. hearing that annoying alarm at 6 am is weirdly the best part of my day.
2. being given the chance to live and work abroad, which has always been a pretty distant dream until now.
3. having the basic necessities like food, water, clothing and shelter... and lucky enough to enjoy the luxuries of having a pool, internet, tv, a car, and many other pretty meaningless possessions.
4. for being healthy physically, mentally (arguably ;)), and emotionally
5. and most recent of all, for having a entire army of supporters from all around the world. you make me feel like my dream of becoming a full time travel writer could really come true <3.
Remember. You don't always have to know where you're going, you just have to keep moving forward. Believe:
1. that hard work and perseverance will pay off
2. in never giving up
3. in finding beauty in every single day
4. in stepping out of your comfort zone
5. in love
6. in the goodness of mankind
7. in meaningfulness of opening your mind to new ideas
8. in continuing to better yourself
9. and in turn, creating the absolute best version of yourself
10. in traveling the world
11. that experiences will bring you far greater joy than an overabundance of things
12. and mostly, in doing the things that make you happy-- whatever crazy thing that may be
Thank you all again for the love and support. You reading, commenting and sharing my story, only reiterates my desire to keep writing.
Also, it's www.aupair.com for those of you who have so kindly asked for the website I used to land this dream life. It's pretty self-explanatory, but questions are welcomed if you have them. Trust your gut. You'll know when you've found the right family.
AND keep your eyes open for a blog documenting my weekly life as an au pair, complete with tips, tricks, joys, and pictures of my beautiful girls and new friends! Followed by a blog about my expense free trip to Cairns, Queensland with the family, where I will be discovering the beautiful rainforest and snorkeling in the Great Barrier Reef. See... I wasn't kidding... luckiest person on earth.
DREAM BIG FRIENDS. THE WORLD IS YOURS <3.